November 2011
1 post
I am not scared of death... I am scared of who I...
October 2011
1 post
I want to kill myself right now
May 2011
1 post
Life fucking sucks ass
April 2011
10 posts
Confrontation is awesome yeah?
I just wanted to see if you cared
Life
So life kinda sucks but it is also pretty good…..
I am sure somone will read this that understands and i am sure it will come back to bite me in the ass.
I obviously made a huge mistake but at the same time it feels right. I just wish i knew a better way to get past that feeling.
To whomever is reading this…. Think before you do…. and make sure you think for yourself.
LIFE IS AWESOME!
Yup... its bacon →
I find that Friends are the reason I have stayed on this earth so long =P
January 2011
3 posts
Realization
I have come to realize that dreams... Are not so bad.... Some may fear them for what they hold, what they show us and how they paint a picture with our feelings, While most may fear dreams for the Nightmares and the Unknown is something I embrace. Dreams for me are more than a mystery. Dreams for me help me to leave a stressful and harsh world to a sometimes better and more peaceful place with puzzles and clues to help me for the days to come, It helps me to understand myself and those around me, The most common perception about them is that they show your emotions from the inside which you may not feel on the outside. Your subconscious takes over and shows you what is really going on deep within, Not only can this help me but it will also help those around me, Understanding the signs given to me is one way on bettering myself. I am getting better at Interpreting events I have and how to use it to my advantage, Tonight once I close my eyes I look forward to my next adventure, Seeing as I know what it may hold for me I know what to expect for the most part, i know most people (as in all) will not read this but that does not matter to me, all the matters is that I can write what I want when I want and how I want. But back to the matter at hand, I have enough dream stories from the past stored on my computer to write a book, each day I find out new things about those that can show me what I was like as a freshman... and how I relate to myself now. Considering my latest events this past week I should have enough dreams to last me a lifetime. All I need to do... is wait.... and accept what they show, as well as learn from its message. You can never go wrong when you listen to yourself and go with what you feel is right.
To be simple... The more I dream, The more I know, and the happier people around me shall become.
Dreams 1/10/11
last night I had a dream that keeps coming back every now and then, Before last night I was unable to put a face to the person, until now, I figured out that all the diff people where friends of mine, Each time I would be in a dark area like a forest and would hear cry's for help, I would run to a red lit tunnel with a hole at the top, My friend is falling as I run under just in time to catch them, This repeats a few times in the same dream with different people, when i wake up I always feel tired as if I was really running all those times, I hope I can figure out what this dream means.
[Edit] -> From what I have found out the dream can mean two thing, Both the opposite of the other, The most common is that I am tired of Helping these select few friends with there problems, It suggests that I am trying to help everyone with everything and that I want to be on everyone's good side. it is causing strain on my mind causing me to have these dreams.
The second is that I WANT to continue helping them, even if it means I exhaust myself in the process, it shows that I want to help everyone always even if it causes me pain/to be tired.
I am unsure what one it is, I like to help my friends with problems but at the same time it is stressful, non the less I like to help my friends no matter what happens to me ^^
Dreams 1/9/11
Last night my dream was all about hugging.... I don't know why, but it was, Started off with me going to school and ALL my friends where in one area, I just started to hug all of them and that was pretty much it, one or two friends got longer hugs but that does not matter, I woke up at 11 AM with my pillow in my arms, that is the first time I have ever woken up with something in my hands/arms
What do you think this means???
[Edit] -> Hugging in dreams means signs off love and tenderness, comfort and protection for yourself and those you are hugging, It is a happy and uplifting dream.